FALLING upHILL

masquerade June 21, 2009

Looking into your eyes

I saw through your masquerade

I looked passed your material cover ups

And saw into you

You’re just scared, like the rest of us

Yet you pretend to be above it all

You claim to told all the answers

You think we are the lost ones

But my poor boy

It is you

You and your untrusting ways

Your lies have corrupted your fate

This fake tower you’ve built shall crumble

And you will be there naked and shamed

I AM Paul May 5, 2009

I am Paul.

The least of them…

My sins exceed the stars in the sky

I’ve done nothing to promote your kingdom

Yet everyday with my actions, I denounced thee

From my mouth lies and lust spills

I am unworthy of your love

But grace and mercy

On me you spill

random April 3, 2009

Where does beauty lie?

Wherever you find it

In the oddest places it appears

I usually see it when I’m up side down

In a frown

A tear

You can catch a hint of it in ones fears

Happiness is a disguise for misery

So it’s solemnly there

Yesterday I found beauty in a smile

It was no ordinary smile

You could tell that smile was rare

On this face it rarely appeared

But the way the light hit his face

You could tell all memories of the past

Just then were erased

Then he looked at me

From then I became part of his memory

I wonder, how will he remember me?

God is LOVE March 11, 2009

Today I discovered love

I discovered that I was created in love

By love

For it and I was one

I discovered that love longs to be in my presence

That I am all love thinks of

Today I got a better understanding of love

We spent time together

Love held me and caressed my soul

My pain was destroyed with loves touch

Love whispered to me

And the wind blew my hair

Love took my hand and told me of nothing should I fear

Today I discovered love

When I needed love the most

When all the world slipped away

When there was no one to cry to

When life gave up on me

Love took me in its arms

And whispered in my ear

“I am LOVE”

“I am God”

RaBBit HOle January 15, 2009

I wish I would have known

Before I placed my bet

That this shiiit hurts so much

I’VE FALLEN

And I can’t seem to find

My way out of love

They say you’ll get over it….someday

When does my someday began?

Never been the emotional type

So I stay faded

The love you gave was jaded

So now were split apart

Forever separated

COCKY son of a bItCH January 15, 2009

I guess you just cant help
That your so fucking coo
beyond belief
I cant help that im attracted to your greatest
Your my gOtdamn weakness
Oh yes I lack meekness
But I won’t find myself tellin’
You this shit face to face
so ill waste my time
writing this shiiit for you
that you’ll never come across
nor hear of
nor know exists, for that matter
you cocky son of a bitch…….

Dear Brother, December 24, 2008

Disgust is what I feel when I look at you

Your beautiful brown skin

You torment with bleach

Strains of your present sins are slowly seeping… into your soul

And you think they fear you?

Well they use to

When you stood tall and knew who you were

Instead of fighting them

You kill each other

Your very brother…

Now you’re confused as they sit back and laugh at you

How can I look you in the eyes?

Shame fills my lungs as I speak of you

Wishing for your demised

Praying for the death of your ignorance

What other choice have I?

Call me out my name

No longer “my sister’

Instead I’m “mama”, “shawty” or “bitch”!

Though far we have come

Yet our minds in slavery reminds

Why trade our beautiful thick hair

For straight lies?

Yet staring in your brown eyes I see no shame

If your brother is a nigga, niggers we‘ll all remain

Although I bare your child, respect I don’t gain?

My black boys I urge you to grow into men

See your power that they caged within

Treat your sisters with respect

For we’re dying spiritual, mentally and physically

When you’re gone you leave your babies crying

Mothers becoming daddies because you’re no longer providing

I should have let you go so long ago

Yet for you to come home I’m praying

THE FUTURE………

THE EGOIST December 23, 2008

“I swear by my life and the love of it that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for the sake of mine” – Ayn Rand (Atlas Shrugged)

I’ve noticed everywhere I look, no one is thinking. Most have given up making choices completely. From the simplest things such as asking advice on what to wear, eat, or watch, to more serious matters such as what school to attend or career path to follow. It’s becoming clearer to me that people only ask for advice because they’re afraid to think. They do not want to be made accountable for their decisions so they placed the decisions in others hands. Yet, it is not simply choice their giving up, it is their will to live. For what is life if not a series of DECISIONS?

sTeAdily it RISE December 14, 2008

I hold my breath

God knows I can’t take the pain

I’m about to break any day

Yet it keeps coming

Getting stronger

The voices that only I can hear

Cannot be silenced

Death never seemed so sweet

Close my eyes

Drown all out

Let the world pass me

I’m crying tears dry tears

For there’s nothing left in me

Evils long push away

Now so steadily they rise

tHese aRe A feW Of mY fAvOriTe tHiNGs… December 13, 2008