I imagine I’m in heaven and God tells me “I am going to send you to Earth, how do you want to spend you’re time there?” I’d say “I want to see every part of the world and meet as many people as I can. Along the way I’d fall in love many times. Spend days at the beach, looking at the stars, playing in the snow with a stranger, falling in love, getting my heart bruised, learning to speak as many languages as possible. I would be completely free. Going where ever the wind blows and doing what feels good to my soul. No worries just be. Then when I’m done having my human experience, I’ll come back to you so we can be together for eternity.”

My have I’ve grown. Looking back on all my writing I almost forgot who that girl was. I admire that young lady writing each of those post. Sometimes when we take a step back and look at ourselves, we don’t like what we see. I really love what I saw. I was honest, flawed, brave and broken. If I would have come across this page, I would have loved to know the author. The world has made me the women of my dreams.

I saw through your masquerade

I looked passed your material cover ups

And saw into you

You’re just scared, like the rest of us

Yet you pretend to be above it all

You claim to told all the answers

You think we are the lost ones

But my poor boy

It is you

You and your untrusting ways

Your lies have corrupted your fate

This fake tower you’ve built shall crumble

And you will be there naked and shamed

The least of them…

My sins exceed the stars in the sky

I’ve done nothing to promote your kingdom

Yet everyday with my actions, I denounced thee

From my mouth lies and lust spills

I am unworthy of your love

But grace and mercy

On me you spill

Wherever you find it

In the oddest places it appears

I usually see it when I’m up side down

In a frown

A tear

You can catch a hint of it in ones fears

Happiness is a disguise for misery

So it’s solemnly there

Yesterday I found beauty in a smile

It was no ordinary smile

You could tell that smile was rare

On this face it rarely appeared

But the way the light hit his face

You could tell all memories of the past

Just then were erased

Then he looked at me

From then I became part of his memory

I wonder, how will he remember me?

I discovered that I was created in love

By love

For it and I was one

I discovered that love longs to be in my presence

That I am all love thinks of

Today I got a better understanding of love

We spent time together

Love held me and caressed my soul

My pain was destroyed with loves touch

Love whispered to me

And the wind blew my hair

Love took my hand and told me of nothing should I fear

Today I discovered love

When I needed love the most

When all the world slipped away

When there was no one to cry to

When life gave up on me

Love took me in its arms

And whispered in my ear

“I am LOVE”

“I am God”

No sadness

No loneliness

No tears

No sleepless nights

No heartbreak

No failures

No depression

No fears

Not a care in the world

All is at peace

No racial tension

No gender discrimination

No injustice

When the day comes that these things are true

All writers will cease to exist

If we lived in a perfect world there would be no need

Till that day comes

I shall remind armed with my PEN!